Oh, to be in the flow and riding the crest of a wave.
To leap with faith, and have no qualms about leaving your old self behind. To be blessed enough to have glimpsed the heavenly, and still get to shuffle the deck and play more earthly hands... in new casinos, with new friends. Standing on your riverboat and sailing upstream, you can almost believe that you've lost those hellhounds that were on your trail.
"WTF is this guy on about?" you may be thinking.